Caregivers can be with someone and feel lonely. Your heart longs for her to squeeze your hand and look into your eyes like she used to. You miss someone who can finish your sentences and laugh at your jokes. You miss his strong arms holding you close and letting you cry. This isn’t how you expected things to be in your marriage.
At the same time, your love for them, just as they are now, is more powerful and intense than ever before. You would not really want to be anywhere else. Some days are just hard and full of challenges.
People may want to help. It takes time to ask for help. It takes time to explain so others can understand how to best provide care. It takes trust to leave your loved one with someone else. The process can be exhausting, so you sigh and just do it all yourself.
You are joined by many. Most caregivers have felt what you are feeling. I felt lonely it in the middle of the night in an emergency room with my mom. I felt lonely driving back and forth when my caregiving was long distance. I felt it sitting beside my dad who no longer had conversations with me. It hurts, but it so worth letting the other person know you are simply with them.
When you need a place to cry, turn to Jesus. He prayed in a garden while his companions fell asleep. He was betrayed by a disciple that he shared a meal with. Sometimes we feel like Jesus is the only one who understands.
I am keeping this simple today. Know you are never alone and can always turn to Jesus.
Word for Today
Shout for joy, you heavens; rejoice, you earth; burst into song, you mountains! For the Lord comforts his people and will have compassion on his afflicted ones.
Song for Today
Prayer for Today
Dear God,
Today I feel lonely even though I know you are with me always. I need you to truly be my heavenly father. I need to know you always see my circumstances. Please heal my heart and give me peace.
Amen
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